Freak Out II

I feel like such a wasted piece of shit. I've got a crap load of stuff I need to do around the house. I realize I can't do it all at once, but when I can't get at least some of it done or see some kind of progress, I get down.

I need some time to cut my way out, check some shit off the list - make some progress.

I have to skip rides this week to make some progress. Otherwise I'll go to holiday parties pissed and Jen doesn't like that. I hate this week.

Last year when we bought our house. I took three months off of riding (and just about everything else). I knew there was too much to get done. It was the only way I could cope. Now I'm tyring to do house projects, ride and dance classes. It's not working.